It's just little pieces of my heart ripped apart
so tired of your excuses and I want a new start
So many times I've left words just left unsaid
curtains drawn, not gettin' out of bed
I hold out my hand and reach for more
should've learned by now your words cut to the core
Can someone really explain why I keep holdin' on
to this love that's been long gone
I've lost so much more than you were able to give
and want to release this pain and just live
These tears I've cried a little each day
as my inner peace and grace fade away
Some tell me to stand tall, stand strong
no matter the abuse or the wrong
To lift up my head and take it in stride
and let the world see what I hide
I'm thinking of things locked away in my mind
painful words and actions you won't see or find
So just taking my time thinking things through
as the years fade away and your words too few
There are those who tell me don't waste another day
to walk out, not look back and give it all away
Seventeen years of never giving up
as these memories fill my life's cup
Swept back into this memory of time
while my grandfather clocks melodies chime
My heart and soul, beautiful yet stained
as my body feels forever chained.
(this poem i wrote recently dealing with my own feelings as i struggle in my marriage and try to fight the fear and doubts that are so hard to forget..giving it all to GOD for it is the only thing left i can do.)
